All the best efforts go by the wayside

Labor Day weekend sure blew my great record of cutting out the soda! There was CokaCola in the house. *angry eyes* Martins Aunt brought over a case for the weekend. Guess what, Martin and I both succumbed to the temptation of that bubbly soda. I think I drank like 2 a day. *sigh*
I did go on a bike ride with the kids and a walk. But not everyday like I want. I have to push myself to do it. Why do I think I need someone else to help me? I don't like depending on people for much, but when it comes to this I feel I have to! Why is that? Why can't I just do it? Why can't I get the motivation, every day!

I want to do it. I just get to lost or caught up in other things. It's so frustrating for me

Today, I will go for a walk.

What do you mean it's been since April?

I'm not sure where the rest of Spring and Summer went. I must have lost them amongst the chaos.

I am down to 257 pound! That's great for me! My heaviest was 275!! I stopped buying soda for the house! I think that has helped a lot. I will get a soda if we go to the restaurants, but at least I'm not drinking them at home anymore. I have cheated the last couple of days and gone down to Ricker's. I need to stop doing that!

I've been doing okay with walking and riding my bike with the kids. I need more motivation every day. I wish I had someone to make me do it. I want to loose wait, I need to loose weight. BUT I can now ride the bike a mile without feeling like death walking! That's something, right? Yesterday the kids and I "speed" (as fast as you can go when kids are wearing down) walked around Shadyside. We did 1 and 1/2 mile, which is great! I felt so good.

I wish we lived closer to a nice park, maybe I'd walk it everyday.

Keep me in your prayers! I want to change my body for my own health. I need to be here for my kids and my husband. I know they are happy with who I am but I'm not happy with what I weigh.








Starting weight: 275
Current weight: 257
Goal weight: 160 (hahahaha)

Forecast: sunny

Little Miss is sick, again. It's very frustrating. I don't know why she keeps getting sick. She's laying and moaning on the couch. It's a very pitiful sight. Her big brother has been bouncing off the walls and driving me insane. What does this mother do? Force them both outside into the fresh air and sun.

Yep, instead of sitting inside we went for a walk around the neighborhood. Nothing to long. Sis did well until about 1/2 way then she kept complaining of her legs hurting.

She is currently laying in the overstuffed chair and looking quite sleepy. It's only 3:30 but I'm thinking of giving her a bath now and sending her to bed...


I'm hoping the weather stays fairly nice, I love getting outside and walking. It makes me feel better.

I've been so tired lately, but all I can do is suck it up and go on with my life.

Doing well

So these last few days have been pretty good. I've been walking around the block with the kids. It's about almost a mile, the way I go. Not quite, but almost.
I also walked down the gas station, which roundtrip is a 1.5 miles. If the weather continues staying nice, I think I can keep this up.

I like walking, walking relaxes me. Especially if it's a nice day outside.

Q: How does liberty die?

A: with thunderous applause

'Once the crisis has abated, I will lay down these powers'

One day at a time

Friday was nice! The weather was wonderful. Martin was "sick", but not really sick. He just took a half day off (he still had to go to Borders in the evening). We went to shadyside and walked for a bit, not the whole thing but it was still nice to get out. We just spent the day together as a family, which was so very nice! We really miss him.

Saturday and Sunday I didn't manage to do any good walks, I sure wasn't feeling well. Man. Almost every time I eat something now, my stomach gives me fits. I get dizzy and nauseated. I might as well stop eating, but I know I can't do that either.

*Blows dust off keyboard*

Wow, it sure has been awhile. I can't believe I stopped writing a blog! I was really enjoying doing this to. Life just gets to busy I guess. I don't get on the computer during the day and have to wait until Martin gets home, then I check my e-mail, facebook, forums, youtube, etc etc and sort of "forget" about blogging and the reasons I need to!

I haven't blogged and I stopped walking. I feel like sleeping all day long, but can't. I have the kids, so I get up feed them and then do school. I fix lunch. Then I sometimes fall asleep on the couch. My arms ache, tingle, burn...can't really describe what it feels like. It's like very muscle in my body is revolting against me. My house is such a wrech, I would be so ashamed if anyone came over. I need to get my energy levels up, but I can't. It's so hard.

OH! I did mop the floor the other day, but had to keep stopping because I kept getting dizzy. I'm not out of breathe or anything. I just feel like I'm going to pass out. I can't really tell if it's because my kidneys are functioning so low or what. I barely have the energy to do dishes and I expect myself to walk?

I'm hoping that the weather stays nice out! (63 out today). I want to walk, I really do. Maybe if it's nice, I'll feel like taking the kids out for a walk. Here's to hoping.

The kids are doing fairly well. I'm thinking about going with an actual curriculum for next year, instead of trying to do my own. I'm hoping it will help with my low energy, I'll just have to teach it and not make the lesson.
I've been losing my temper more than I like. I'm hoping it's just because I'm so exhausted and don't feel well. It wasn't so bad yesterday but last week was like I was a monster!

Anyway, heres to hoping I get back on my blogs and walking! Thanks for reading.